I need to write my book list down so I figured I would share it with all of you..
(Finish) Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince: J.K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: J.K. Rowling
Boy Meets Boy: David Levithan
The Perks of Being a Wallflower: Stephen Chbosky
Looking for Alaska: John Green
An Abundance of Katherine's: John Green
The Hobbit: J.R.R Tolkien
The Fellowship of the Ring: J.R.R Tolkien
The Two Towers: J.R.R Tolkien
The Return of the King: J.R.R Tolkien
PLUS!: Beat Mass Effect 2
Be the king on Dragon Age!
If you have any suggestions for my book list PLEASE! let me know! I am always willing to read new books.. :). I love you guys!
Remember who you are and what you stand for.
<3 KDWan
Monday, January 31, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
For You..
I cried over you today..
It was the first time since it happened..
I can't say it made me feel good..
I can't say that it helped at all..
All I can say is that it opened a wound I thought I had closed..
I loved you, you know..
More than I think I've loved anyone before..
I trusted you more than I've trusted anyone since him..
I miss you..
I wish I could say that I forgive you..
I wish we could just throw this silly thing out the window and pretend it never happened..
But I can't forgive you, cause if I did I would never be able to forgive myself..
and truthfully, if I can't live with myself, I can't live with anyone..
I like to think that maybe someday i'll be able to get over it..
but then I realize that will probably never happen..
So now I have to ask Why?
Why did you have to do that?
Why did you have to ruin everything we had going?
I was going to give up everything for you..
I don't think you knew that..
I'm sorry..
I'm sorry that you ruined this..
I'm sorry I can't forgive you..
I'm sorry that I couldn't stop this from happening..
I'm sorry that I wasn't everything that YOU needed..
I'm sorry that you had to find someone else to make you happy..
I'm sorry that this happened..
I just wanted you to know that I cried over you today..
and it didn't help.. or hurt..
It simply showed me..
It showed me what my life without you will look like..
It was the first time since it happened..
I can't say it made me feel good..
I can't say that it helped at all..
All I can say is that it opened a wound I thought I had closed..
I loved you, you know..
More than I think I've loved anyone before..
I trusted you more than I've trusted anyone since him..
I miss you..
I wish I could say that I forgive you..
I wish we could just throw this silly thing out the window and pretend it never happened..
But I can't forgive you, cause if I did I would never be able to forgive myself..
and truthfully, if I can't live with myself, I can't live with anyone..
I like to think that maybe someday i'll be able to get over it..
but then I realize that will probably never happen..
So now I have to ask Why?
Why did you have to do that?
Why did you have to ruin everything we had going?
I was going to give up everything for you..
I don't think you knew that..
I'm sorry..
I'm sorry that you ruined this..
I'm sorry I can't forgive you..
I'm sorry that I couldn't stop this from happening..
I'm sorry that I wasn't everything that YOU needed..
I'm sorry that you had to find someone else to make you happy..
I'm sorry that this happened..
I just wanted you to know that I cried over you today..
and it didn't help.. or hurt..
It simply showed me..
It showed me what my life without you will look like..
Sunday, January 23, 2011
A Change..
This happens every time. I get out of school expecting great and marvelous things to happen to my writing. Every time something happens where I just sit around the house all day. I am completely uninspired and my writing goes to poop.. So, i've been reading a little trying to figure out what to do. So here are some things that I need to start doing. I will try and keep up a daily blog about my daily achievements.
1. Continue to read everything!: I am very proud of myself and all the books I have read. I have been home for a month and in there I have almost eight books. I need to read a lot more though. So I will continue to read whether it's actual reading or listening to books. I will read something every day.
2. Meditate: Doesn't matter what I think about, but I will take 15 minutes every single day to think about something. Just let my mind wander all over the place. Whether it's thinking about my books or just something in my life.
3. Use my hands: I need to be doing something with them that isn't typing. I need to be drawing, knitting, writing letters, coloring. Something that doesn't take a lot of brain activity but gets my hands active and moving.
4. Go to bed earlier: I always stay up so late and sleep all day. So I am going to be in bed by 10 every night (unless something I can't miss is going on.) and then wake up by 9:30 the next day. Sunday I will be awake earlier so than I can go to singles ward here. :) I've also heard that naps help. So maybe, if I need it, a half hour cat nap in the middle of the day.
5. Work out more than what I have been doing: I'm pretty proud of myself for what I've done to become healthier this year. I'm going to start working harder though. Doing something different every single day. Whether it's lifting weights, just playing the kinect, or getting back into Yoga and Tai Chi.
6. Get up and do something!: Go somewhere every day. Whether it's just a drive in my car listening to music, but get out of the house. I need to go out and see people. Go to a movie. Meet someone new... Go to Barnes and Noble! haha. Spend way too much time out of the house.
7. Watch and listen to more news. : You can learn a lot from the news going on around you. I need to become more in tune with everything that is going on around me.
8. Be spontaneous: Do what I want at random times throughout the day.
That's really all I can think of right now. If you want to help out or participate in any of these please let me know. I will be very happy to have you come a long. Talking to people is something that can also stir your creative juices. I love you guys.
Hope you are having a wonderful year so far.
Remember who you are
and what you stand for.
KDwan.
1. Continue to read everything!: I am very proud of myself and all the books I have read. I have been home for a month and in there I have almost eight books. I need to read a lot more though. So I will continue to read whether it's actual reading or listening to books. I will read something every day.
2. Meditate: Doesn't matter what I think about, but I will take 15 minutes every single day to think about something. Just let my mind wander all over the place. Whether it's thinking about my books or just something in my life.
3. Use my hands: I need to be doing something with them that isn't typing. I need to be drawing, knitting, writing letters, coloring. Something that doesn't take a lot of brain activity but gets my hands active and moving.
4. Go to bed earlier: I always stay up so late and sleep all day. So I am going to be in bed by 10 every night (unless something I can't miss is going on.) and then wake up by 9:30 the next day. Sunday I will be awake earlier so than I can go to singles ward here. :) I've also heard that naps help. So maybe, if I need it, a half hour cat nap in the middle of the day.
5. Work out more than what I have been doing: I'm pretty proud of myself for what I've done to become healthier this year. I'm going to start working harder though. Doing something different every single day. Whether it's lifting weights, just playing the kinect, or getting back into Yoga and Tai Chi.
6. Get up and do something!: Go somewhere every day. Whether it's just a drive in my car listening to music, but get out of the house. I need to go out and see people. Go to a movie. Meet someone new... Go to Barnes and Noble! haha. Spend way too much time out of the house.
7. Watch and listen to more news. : You can learn a lot from the news going on around you. I need to become more in tune with everything that is going on around me.
8. Be spontaneous: Do what I want at random times throughout the day.
That's really all I can think of right now. If you want to help out or participate in any of these please let me know. I will be very happy to have you come a long. Talking to people is something that can also stir your creative juices. I love you guys.
Hope you are having a wonderful year so far.
Remember who you are
and what you stand for.
KDwan.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Jar Of Hearts
I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
And learn to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Maybe it's because I've been stuck at home for awhile, but I've been feeling pretty down. This song (I've heard it before) has somehow helped me cop with feelings I have been feeling. I guess it's the way I feel about a certain person.. They probably know who they are, I have no reason to name names. But, this is just a great song. and if you haven't heard it you should probably look it up. anyways.. That's really all I care to write. I just wanted to let you all know what I was feeling in this exact moment.. I love you.
Be True,
<3 KDWan
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
And learn to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Maybe it's because I've been stuck at home for awhile, but I've been feeling pretty down. This song (I've heard it before) has somehow helped me cop with feelings I have been feeling. I guess it's the way I feel about a certain person.. They probably know who they are, I have no reason to name names. But, this is just a great song. and if you haven't heard it you should probably look it up. anyways.. That's really all I care to write. I just wanted to let you all know what I was feeling in this exact moment.. I love you.
Be True,
<3 KDWan
Monday, January 03, 2011
2011's new year.
As you see I already failed at this new year! haha. I told you I would post the 1st.. well it is not the 3rd. KD fail.
So.. resolutions. I tried to think of someone. Really I just want to become a better person all around, but here are a few resolutions I have come up with.
1. Make more videos.
2. Get myself a good reliable agent.
3. Write more than I have time for.
4. Read more than I have time for.
5. Keep at least a 3.0 in school.
6. Learn to draw well.
7. Have a wonderful year with eventful stories and magnificent times.
8. Write more in my blog.
9. Meet a new person every day.
10. Dance in the rain a little more.
I love you guys, I hope you haven't given up on me.
I love you very very much.
Remember who you are, and what you stand for.
-KDWan
So.. resolutions. I tried to think of someone. Really I just want to become a better person all around, but here are a few resolutions I have come up with.
1. Make more videos.
2. Get myself a good reliable agent.
3. Write more than I have time for.
4. Read more than I have time for.
5. Keep at least a 3.0 in school.
6. Learn to draw well.
7. Have a wonderful year with eventful stories and magnificent times.
8. Write more in my blog.
9. Meet a new person every day.
10. Dance in the rain a little more.
I love you guys, I hope you haven't given up on me.
I love you very very much.
Remember who you are, and what you stand for.
-KDWan
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