The Phoenix Complex

First off: I am sorry I haven’t written in awhile. School has ripped me a new one and boy do I love it…

Second off: The actual blog…

As I wrote Silver Lining I tried to make Collin/Shiloh much like me. I wanted to write Silver Lining for me and I wanted it to be about me and symbolize some things that I went through. Well, as I wrote it I began to notice that when I wrote Phoenix everything happened so smoothly, he came to life at my fingertips without any effort from my brain. He was the perfect opposite of Collin and that’s why they worked out. Well, after writing the book, the second, and starting the third I began to realize that I REALLY enjoyed writing Phoenix. So as I went back to edit I realized that his parts were the easiest for me to read through. But when he leaves and gives his protection of Collin over to Rylan I have to stop every time. There is something about that scene that takes a lot of out of me. I have to take a break before I can jump into the story again and I think recently I have discovered why… I have never been Collin/Shi— I have always been Phoenix. In my mind I was this wimpy protagonist that finds love and changes their life, when really, I was the person who was never seen for who he really was. I was a person who had to hide himself from the world. I was someone who, after finding love, became much more complicated. Then as I looked through all the stories and how Phoenix’s life is whipped around without a care, always the back seat, I realized once again… I am him.
Well, now as I am writing the third book I have hit a roadblock. I mean literally. I sit at my computer screen, the marker blinking, for hours and nothing is able to come out, it’s because Phoenix is stuck. He’s stuck somewhere in the middle and I had a choice to make either I could give Phoenix the world—Happiness, Love, Money… Or I could take it away from him, leave him empty handed and alone…

After last night I got my answer…
I’m sorry Phoenix…
You and I both knew it couldn’t end up the way we wanted.



P.S.: I am going back to old school—finishing the book the way I started it… hand writing. Phoenix and I are going to have one more final push to the end then we'll see where we end up.

Angry...

I am going to tell you something that makes me really angry: Robert Pattinson..
No, not because he's a horrible actor, BUT because he's a magnificent musician. He should honestly quit acting and just sing! It frustrates me to no end. I want CD after CD of his voice singing to me. Instead I only get the two songs he did for Twilight and the rest I stole from the YouTubes.

I think we should start a petition..
The "Don't let Robert Pattinson act anymore and just keep singing" petition..
I like it...
You better sign it when I make it...

-KD Wan John Silver Martin-Howell-Kenobi-SNAPE!

Alcatraz Versus The Evil Librarians

Alcatraz Versus the Evil Librarians

Alcatraz Versus the Evil Librarians (AVEL) is a fun, quirky book, which will keep your attention through each chapter. I found myself not wanting to put the book down after hours of reading. I continually wanted to know what would happen to the protagonist Alcatraz Smedry. Brandon Sanderson, the author, has beautifully captured the art of narration and point of view. When you read through AVEL you hear Alcatraz’s voice. You hear his thoughts and you understand exactly what he is going through. There are many different things that bring this book to life. There are knights, Evil Librarians, Talking dinosaurs, A witty and very fun Grandpa Smedry (who, by the end of the book, you will want to be your grandfather.)
The only thing I could see why readers would not like the story, would probably be the narration in between chapters. Some people may consider this a climax spoiler, or breaking the tension of the book.
As for me I found this very realistic. How many of us go through the climax of our life’s action without the inner narration moving around in our head? I believe that this book is really realistic and by the end you will be asking yourself, “are there really Evil Librarians trying to take over the world.”

***** (5 Stars)

Day 13: I Hate You..

Today is day 13, and that is: Write a letter to someone who has hurt you recently..

Dear Person who has hurt me recently,
YOU SUCK!

<3 KD Wan John Silver Martin-Howell-Kenobi-Snape

Day 10, 11, 12: I Fail..

Day 10: Songs..!

I posted earlier on my blog about a song called Say Something, I listen to that song more than I listen to anything. There are a couple more that I listen to. Clair De Lune by Debussy. Iridiscent by Linkin Park. Really I just listen to whatever I'd like to at the moment. I listen to a lot of Glee. That shouldn't come as a shock, considering I love Glee.

Day 11: More Friends!




This was taken at a chorale picnic that we had. I love all of these people. We were all in Peter Pan together. Forever my Peter Pan family will be fond in my heart. I love them very much and hope that we all stay very close friends throughout the years.


Day 12: Blogger?

So this kid named, Jake Winters, had a blogspot and I started reading it and then I decided that maybe I should start blogging so I just signed up on the same site. That's when I realized that I had a ton of other friends on here too, so I joined and have tried to stay consistent but we all know how that has worked out.


Sorry for the lateness i've been in the process of moving and getting ready for school so I didn't exactly have a lot of spare time to write in the blog. I will try and be more consistent this week! I love you all very much.

-KD Wan John Silver Martin-Howell-Kenobi-Snape

Day 9: Happy Day

What I have done in the past few days..

I MOVED IN! HOooooray!
I am all unpacked and have finished all I need to finish in order to start school.
I feel pretty accomplished.


-KD Wan John Silver-Martin-Howell-Kenobi-Snape

Day 8: Little Tiny Goals

I have many goals. Will I meet them? Probably not. But here are some short term goals for my life.

1. Get moved in to school
2. Start School
3. Get good grades in school.
4. Get a boyfriend
5. Hang out with Kelsey and Jessie... A LOT!
6. Get to know my new roommates.
7. Read a song of Ice and Fire as much as I can without interfering with school.
8. Make a lot of new friends.
9. Have a good time.
10. DANCE..

Day 7: That Someone.. or Something..

I have been thinking a lot about this and I couldn't actually figure out someone or something that has had the biggest impact on me, but I will tell you about something that has had a big impact on me recently. That would be the series A Song of Ice and Fire by George RR Martin. In this book is a boy called Jon Snow, and recently he has taught me a lot. Jon Snow is the bastard son of his father Eddard Stark. So Jon must find his own way in the world. So he goes and takes the black so that he can protect the known world. But what you realize about Jon is that he loves his family very much. He would do anything for them, he even tries to run away to his family after his fathers death. But he is a strong young boy and he has taught me a lot through the book. Plus, he's a total hottie in the TV series, don't deny it.

-KD Wan John Silver Martin-Howell-Kenobi-Snape

Day 6: Really?

Once again I find myself asking the question: Do you really have to ask?



Today the question is: Who is your favorite superhero?
So, pretty much there is no reason even answer this. If you don't know by now, then you don't know anything. But I will humor you through this blog. I guess it's a place for me to expand on my feelings towards the greatest superhero in the world. There are plenty of reasons why I love him and trust me, I have thought about this long and hard. I've studied other comics, but in the end, Iron Man always prevails.

1. He is Pompous: I have never one to like someone who is full of themselves, but yet Tony Stark is my favorite. Probably because he has the sarcastic wit that I look for in people. There's a difference between being a jerk and selfish and being funny and selfish. I like to think that I am the latter. Everyone is selfish, we'll never get over that, Tony Stark just shows it off a little more.

2. The Suit: I have had this discussion many times. I always talk about how Batman is not a superhero because he doesn't have any powers, just a lot of money. That could also be said for Tony Stark. True, he does have a lot of money, but he does have a super power. The suit is just the manifestation of the power. Tony Stark has a big 'ol brain. If you think about it, the suit gives him the "Super powers" that everyone has come to know and love, where super mind's are usually common place for villains. Tony Stark is a genius, 'nuff said.

3. He's hot: Really.. He is.

There are many more reasons why I love him. But I shall leave this blog with just these three. Tony Stark is the greatest superhero to ever grace the pages of Marvel. That will always be the case.. No debate necessary.

-KD Wan John Silver Martin-Howell-Kenobi-Snape

Interjection..

I sometimes like to think that you are my soulmate and I am just waiting for something to happen.. Something to change so that one day you ride by, pick me up, and marry me. I wait for that day.. I just thought you should know.