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I've started a new book. It's called Hero X. It's pretty freaking sweet. Want to see the picture i'm using for a cover type thing? I bet you do!



Pretty sweet, huh? haha. Anyways remember my books from the Silver Lining series. Anyways in the third book (Which hasn't been finished, but i'm telling you about it anyways) Other Heroes come from different worlds. So this book takes place on one of those worlds. haha. Crazy huh?
But anyways. It's pretty sweet. There's a dragon in this one. Dragon's are super sweet. Maybe there will be a sword.. Dragons and a sword. You know when I type sword I have to say it with the w in it.. haha. I'm super cool.
Well, that's what's been going down.
I started recording some songs yesterday. I hope to get an album out before I leave. :S Hopefully it can happen.
idk.
But anyways I love you guys!

<3 Katie Wan.

Talking 'Bout My Generation

I've been thinking lately. I've been watching these musicians on youtube. It amazes me what they're determined to do. I think, they're so young and it's such a wonderful thing. Youth is something that should be used for good. These people want to achieve their dreams. They want to live the life they've always wanted.
Then I thought. I'm one of those poeple. I'm part of the generation now that's striving for their dream. At times it may seem dumb and not worth it. But right now this is my life. My dream; writing. I watch musicians and think how cool they are. But i'm sure they could watch me and think how cool I am. to be doing something I love for the rest of my life.. that would be wonderful.
To change someone's mind with my books. To touch the heart of at least one person. It would mean the world to me. I want to inspire a nation. I want to change the way people look at the world. Perhaps thats what we all want. but do we all actually strive for it?
I want to be able to say I changed someone's view. I want to hear that i'm someone's hero. I dont' do any of this for money. I don't do it for fame. Of course both of things are an added bonus. I do this for you.. I do this for the world out there that isn't quite right.
Someday i'll change the world. I know it now.

You'll see..

<3 Kait

GRRR

You can start judging me when you've been sick most of your life. I'm sick of people thinking i'm just whining because i'm sick. but listen i've never ever ever ever felt 100 percent my whole entire life. Constantly there is something wrong with me. Right now is probably one of the worst things that has come over me. I CAN'T BREATH! If you've never had that then you have no right to judge my mood or my attitude. Trust me i'm holding a lot of what i'm feeling inside. I can almost promise if anyone switched places with me for one day then perhaps they'd be like.. oh wow that really sucks.
It's not that i can't breath.. It's a whole lot more than that. there's no way I would ever be able to explain exaclty what's going on. You just have to be me. You have to be on the meds i'm taking. you have to feel like you're going to throw up almost every five minutes.
I'm just.. idk. I'm freeeeeaking pissed off beyond idk.. Everyone's getting all mad because i'm getting snippy.. but listen I don't sleep well at night.. I don't sleep well during the day.. I can't breath out my nose or my lungs. I feel like throwing up. My head is pounding with great pain. I can barely keep my eyes open from exhaustion.
Not to mention school is stressing me out. I'm just so sick of this all! you have no idea! GAAAAH!
Anyways this was a rant because i'm tired of people just shoving me around. I'M FREAKING SICK DEAL WITH IT!
I'm not even that mad yet.. I probably will get even more mad by tomorrow...

... That post on my facebook didn't help either.. GAH! I HATE YOU!
I really might actually punch someone.

Sick Day

Tonight Jake and I went to Ryan Pelton the Elvis inpersonator again. It was again one of the most amazing experiences of my life. I got a teddy bear. I also got to hang with Isaac and Morgan and I must say it's nice to have friends who haven't forgotten your existence in this universe. ;). I also saw Mr. Johnston; my fav teacher from high school. Anyways, he is super sweet. He even remembers what I was going into college for.. Again nice to know people remember me.. (hint hint) I mean if a teacher can remember you.. shouldn't your friends.
ANYWAYS! I've been sick all week so I haven't been able to go see the little kiddies at the school. They really brighten up my day and without seeing them i've been a grumpy old witch. That could also be because i'm sick. haha. I did get to go on monday to their field trip which was super fun. They got to go to Elite Gymnastics gym which was FABULOUS! haha. They're so cute.
I've gotten a lot of writing done. I havent' been working on anything in particular. Just adding chapters to other stories and what not. It's been quite fun. Being sick is sometimes useful towards my writing career. I get so sick of watching TV it gives me great motivation to continue writing. haha.
Well anyways. Amy Howell is in town and i'm super excited. I hope that we get to do something while she is here. I love her very very much. :D. Anyways. I love you guys. I hope you don't get sick. :S..

<3 Katie Wan

Sugar Daddy's.

Alright so my family and I have started the ideo of starting a food place/Restaurant. ( sp?) Anyways here's the idea:
A dessert place that is open six nights a week. there you will experience live entertainment from around 6 until ten at night. Local bands will play and such.
For the food there will be crazy desserts and regular desserts. such as pies brownies cookies. There will also be such thing as hot chocolate and such. In the back with be an arcade room where there will be old school games (Frogger, Pacman). We will do birthday parties. Special birthday parties where employees will dress up like princesses and what not. (Something like my Aunt Missi does. still working on this aspect). On the walls will hang local artists works. Photography, drawings, Painting. They will be available for sale. So basically people who want to sell their work will be able to.
The prices will determine on your purchases. But you can basically plan on about 5 dollars a person.
My mother will probably be exposing her delicious carmel corn which you will surely love. It's like heaven in your mouth.. You should trust me, I happen to like food. :D. Uhmm. There will talent contests. I'm trying to get my dad to do a senior date night. (Like for old people.. not seniors)
Anyways it's a little coffee shop type of deal. but with no coffee or alcohol served. It's a perfect place to get your band discovered or sell your artwork.
Anyways what I want to know is if you think this is a good idea. My mom told us we had to ask at least 10 people if they think it's a good idea.. so I better get 10 responses.
Anyways there's tons and tons more idea's that have been thrown around. Those are basically the main ideas. So PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE tell me what you think. If you don't want to comment on here leave me a message on facebook or myspace. Whichever you heard this from. :D.

I love you guys. :D

<3 Katie Wan.

Update.

I haven't been on for awhile.
Nothing much has happened realy. I started this really cool story that i'm totally into. It's pretty exciting. I've been putting my book up and such so that's exciting. Uhm. I didn't get to the second round of the competition thing.. It sucks but not really at all. After editing my book for the website i've noticed that it's not nearly ready for publishing yet. There are a few more things that I would like to change and what not. So don't worry about me because it didn't bother me one bit.
Carsten is staying the night tonight. So that means that i've spent the whole night watching Thomas the Tank. haha. It's alright because I enjoy it. I have about 1 million things to do tomorrow. That will be pretty exciting.
I need to edit a little more tonight before I go to bed.
Oh I started working at the elementary school that I used to go to and it's been crazy fun. I go ever morning and full days tuesday and wednesday. It's way exciting and i'm rather enjoying myself. I want to teach kids so bad. I just can't wait until I get the chance. Le sigh. Anyways that's all i've been up to.
No one really talks to me anymore so i don't have any important drama or anything. Actually I have quite a sad life.

This is the new year

So, I need to start getting up early. I need to start working out. and I need to watch every disney show I have in my house before I leave to school. so this is what I have decided.
Starting monday I will watch a disney show early in the morning while working out. That way I get everything done in one shot. So what's a good time to wake up eight? sounds good to me. So Sunday I will not be staying up late any longer. Perhaps with my new energy I will be able to get inspiration in writing.
I need to eat better too. I'll probably make out a time list and give it to my mom so she can keep me on it! I will do that.. Microsoft Excel here I come. :D yay! I love it. I haven't used it in forever.
I shall do that now. I'll color code it and everything. Le sigh. Maybe i'll get back into some sort of shape before school. if I lose 10 pounds I will be happy. Anyways..
I've also decided that I need to get back into acting and singing. So when I go to school i'm going to join the choir that you don't need to audition for. I think i'm going to start singing alto. I dont' think I can sing first soprano any longer.
So idk. Maybe these are like new resolutions. Nah because people dont' keep resolutions (I'm one of those people). So hopefully the disney shows can keep me motivated. haha.

I love you all.
<3 Katie wan.

Help me make the music of the night...

I love Pandora. Today I heard the saddest song ever.. again. When she loved me from Toy story 2. Probably the saddest song EVAR! THEN! I heard David cook sing music of the night.. Oh my goodness. I think I fell in love with him all over again.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vfd4xzPdWvY

Listen to it. AMAZING!
Anyways. It was rather fabulous. I watched men's figure skating on the olympics tonight. It was a whole lot of fun. One of the skaters skated to Phantom music. I picked him to win until the American guy came up then I rooted for him. But still. I basically love Phantom I guess. haha. ^^ really listen to it. FABULOUS!
Well that's basically all I have! Tomorrow is friday. Thank goodness. Maybe i'll take Jake and Kaycee to see New Moon. It's tradition. haha.
Anyways I love you all!
Have a good night.

<3 Katie Wan.

Ear love.

This is so totally random but you should know.:

Ray LaMontagne is the best singer ever! I mean his voice is like sweet chocolately liquid running through my ears. Mmm. Nothing can even describe. I was telling my good friend John that his voice is the soundtrack of my life. If he sang the worst song ever written I wouldn't care. He would somehow make it sound like an angel is singing. :D. I wish I had some of his albums. Suck man. Anyways.. He's the greatest thing.
If you haven't heard him I really recommend it. He's the best thing ever..
ANYWAYS! That's what you should know.
CJ Holverson's voice (boy from IF) totally remind me of Ray.. That's probably why I enjoy hearing him sing so much. hehe. :D. If i ever make a movie they both will be on the soundtrack. Yay.

<3 Katie Wan.

GRRRRRRgh

I don't understand what I do.. I mean i'm not a bad friend am I? But how can every single one of my friends stop talking to me all at the same time? I mean my BEST friends.. There's NO ONE! Nothing.. I've never been very lucky with friends.. no one who ever seemed to want to stick around. It just sucks.. I try. I try very hard to make and keep friends. People don't realize how much I actually do try. It's not easy for me to just randomly befriend people. It's especially not easy for me to open up to someone. ESPECIALLY because every seems to just up and leave with me. I've been having the feeling that perhaps I wasn't ever meant to have friends. Perhaps I never will have friends. Maybe i'll get married.. but that's not looking up either. and I know everyone's going to read tihs.. haha did I just say that everyone reads my blog. HAHAHAHAH! that was funny. But I mean when you read this you're going to think or say something along the lines. You don't know what's in store for you. or I"m your friend Katie. Or don't be in such a rush.. I've heard it.. I've listened.. but I know myself probably better than you.. I know my life better than you and i KNOW what is going on. Friends suck. Family rules and well that's what i'm sticking with. I think i'll cut myself off from the outside world until I leave for school. No more friends No more text messaging unless it's family. I"m just sick of trying to be good to someone only to get it slapped in my face OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.. and YOU!
Oh you.. you have better know how incredibly hurt I am by you.. I poured my soul out to you. told you things I have never told anyone in my life.. and this is how you repay me? I've never told anyone things I told you.. NO ONE! I can't believe that you would call me your best friend.. I can't believe you would dare to say i'll always be in life and then completely cut me out of it. I don't think i've ever felt so hurt by anyone.. "Nothing comes between friends, especially fences" -budweiser commercial from the superbowl. I just.. I don't know I don't see how something that could be put before me.
Some people's children..
I"m just upset and mad
if you don't hear from me ever again..
read this freaking blog and think about what you've done.

I don't love you all.. Only some of you tonight. <3

Katie Wan.